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[whitrthanwhite]

Back from Holiday family gatherings. My Grandmother didn't seem as scary as I thought. She said she was mostly proud of me for my time at the Technical School (Duel Academy) and my hard work, but is disappointed I seem so... empty and... what was the word.

Vapid? Windy?

And that I should do something with myself and make my place in the world instead of like my mother, who defines herself through men. Or. Something. It felt kind of warm what she was saying.

... I should do something besides sitting around.

Also, Shikou, she heavily approved of you based on her background checks.

Onni, she disapproves of you heavily and calls you a womanfier.

Susan, she said you're a terrible influence.

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[observershikou.livejournal.com]

But you'd at least be doing something, and you'd have a superior over you to make sure that isn't all you do.

Furthermore, you'd also be outside of your current home. Being outside tends to help some revitalization.

... Why don't you think on it for a while, alright? I'll ask again the next time I take you out.

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

Probably for the best.

... Do you think I have a poor choice in friends?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

I don't think you necessarily have a poor choice in friends.

I do think though that you may take their influences upon you more strongly than necessary.

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

Huh?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

For instance. I seem to remember strongly about Miss DeRay encouraging you to relax and indulge in things while you were under the incense's influence.

I also remember strongly her backpedaling when you went a bit too far for her tastes, and nearly quit the Pro Leagues.

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

... Oh right. Something about being more lazy, shallow, and greedy...?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... Yes, most likely.

But it's a strong example of how influences might be taken too strongly by you. While I would not criticize the people you make friends with, I would, however, criticize the cues and actions of them.

I would not call them "poor friends", though. A poor friend would be someone who takes advantage of you-- a good friend is someone who wants to be with you.

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

I just want them to like me...

So should I be friends with Susan or not? I'm confused here.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

A good friend as well would generally like you for who they know-- not what they want you to eventually be. One might desire some likeness to themselves in others, but in general, humans will desire some difference along with it. One can't tend to stand someone just like them, after all.

You should continue to be friends with her, Shiroko. She seems to generally like you and care about you.

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

... Except Noriko.

... Okay.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... Noriko is a fairly unique sort, yes.

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

Quite.

[Private to Shikou]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

... I don't like how much Onni is depressed.

Re: [Private to Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... It's a depressing thing in itself, that he does get as down as he does, but I don't think I can do anything to really... Help, that point.

Re: [Private to Shikou]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

... You can't?

Re: [Private to Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Shiroko, it's quite obvious he most likely holds a form of resentment against me.

We are on better terms now, yes, but... Say, publicly speaking of me getting approved of by your grandmother while he wasn't, may have triggered the negative feelings in him. He most likely feels like he's being compared to me a lot.

Which, admittedly, is not something I want him to feel.

Re: [Private to Shikou]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

That's dumb. I love you both for completely separate but equal reasons. Both of which keep me feeling sane.

Re: [Private to Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

I can... Understand that.

... It's much like you and Suzume, really. Haaa...

... But, it is still a factor in Mr. Haitayuu.

Re: [Private to Shikou]

[whitrthanwhite.livejournal.com]

... She seems cute.

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

... Will you marry me?

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Suzume, I wanted to marry you since months and months ago.

However, I think some hurdles need to be overcome.

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

There's one hurdle: Monogamy.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

No, I think there are many hurdles.

And as it is, if I were ready to wed, then perhaps I would have already proposed.

However, I feel as though some things still need to be done. Especially concerning you and your reactions to others.

I feel your general reactions are quite unjust.

[suzakuformation.livejournal.com]

It's completely just.

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Suzume, tell me.

Have you ever spoken to Shiroko at any sort of length?

Directly spoken to her, not "watched her conversations".