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Uh.

So I feel basically creatively blank. And kind of mentally squished. Combined with Ai needing to handle some personal business in the 12 Dimensions (how do you get to the 12 Dimensions anyways? Like safely?)

Sooo.

I'm taking a sabbatical. I need to refresh myself. I want to know about magical fabrics better. I want to just. Explore life. And clear my head. Maybe for at least a month or three, maybe more?

That said.

Castle & Castle itself, as Black Velvet more or less handles a lot of operational costs (but doesn't own it directly still, I'm looking at you Noriko), will remain running under a temporary 'caretaker' team the Wakahisa sisters have vetted, along with the staff Ai and I had hired, but I'm being told they will basically only be taking very expensive orders for the foreseeable future, and don't have experience with more specialized fabrics I and Ai are good at.

Uh.

If anyone needs anything, is curious what's going on or needs to vetted to the 'caretaker' team, please ask me.

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Are you... going to be okay? I didn't realize you were feeling a need to refresh yourself that much, to leave your work.

I don't know.

I look at clothing now, I get bored, and just watch stuff on YouTube or start cleaning or start cooking.

Or I kinda look at the racks of clothes for a while, wait for someone to work on them and then go "Oh right, I'm the fashion designer. Huh.".

I dunno. I think my brain's going goofy and.

I just need to... Detox? I dunno. I think if my current routine keeps going much longer, I'll just.

Pop.

Popping would be extremely bad, yes.

Where exactly do you plan on going and doing, though?

I 'unno.

Just.

Free spirit in as much as being a mom can allow me.

I need. Not out of my life, but like.

I want to know more about Illusion Magic. Maybe pressure Noriko into whatever "Project Black Bible" is. I want to know more about magic so I can make clothes.

I want to stop looking at clothes every day and just feel. "Eh". Like I have for the last few months.

Maybe I'll just sit at a place I buy and eat shrimp pizza and play video games in my sweatpants and sweat shirt.

I really don't. Know.

I just want to find Futaba Shiroko. Is the best way I can put it?

Hnmm... I think I understand that.

... "Project Black Bible"?

I should probably get something more organized but, last thing right right now I want is more routine. I need to be a free spirit. Discover myself. Maybe I'm a mad witch angel or something and I want to raise a floating continent. Maybe I want to be a stay-at-home mom.

Sorry, I need to vent.

Uh.

Noriko's been trying to start a Seminar on Magic for years but constant depression and aggrivation and apparently something that's been driving her insane since June of last year has delayed it.

And she won't tell anyone what it is that's been eating up all her time and making her get circles under her eyes more and more, and making her more emotionally... volatile? How would you say that without it being rude?

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I think if you're feeling burned out creatively, it's a good idea to go and experience and learn something new. Sometimes if you feel you have to move on, it's a good idea to do so.

Kind of like how I left a few months ago so I could concentrate more on my own fashion design business. I knew the right time had come for that.

I really hope everything goes well, Shiroko-san and that whatever you decide to concentrate on will help you feel better.

Yeah, which is why I'm hoping it's just a sabbatical.

How's that going, anyways. Your designs were looking super cute.

So do I. And I hope I don't do something stupid because of it, heh.

But thank you, Kotori-chan.

It's been going really well! My business is still very small, but it's really gained a lot of growth this year and I tend to have a steady flow of commissions and sales.

My partner and his family have a saying:
'Kattobing'
It means to never give up, no matter the challenge. So, even if something you try doesn't work out for you, just remember to pick yourself up and try something different.
Eventually you'll find what you're looking for.

That's good to hear! And if there's anything I can do as your teacher and Senpai, be sure to ask.

That's. Honestly what I want to do. Just. Pick myself up, get myself out of a rut, and discover a new path to the future.

Thank you, Shiroko-san. That really means a lot to me.

I think you'll find the path you need.

And if you ever want to talk or meet up for coffee at any point, just give me a call. I'd be happy to meet up.

And I'll make sure to buy some of your stuff. You should of told me.

Sure. Let's do that soon. I don't think you've ever talked much about your SO.

We should definitely arrange that soon then. I look forward to it!

I'll be sure to be there!

...If Ai needs help travelling through the 12 Dimensions safely, I can probably get some assistance with that, pull some connections.

That said, if you need me for anything at all for this, I'm here. Sometimes needing a break from your routine is good.

...Granted, I know it's a bit hypocritical for me of all people to say that, but.

She'll probably be appreciate it, but I'm kind of annoyed there's no consistent method to get around.

Take care of Ichirou or hire a maid/nanny to do so so I can have free time and Mom isn't watching him all the time.

Hrm, I wonder...

I've been trying to workshop some kind of way to consistently transport through the 12 Dimensions, but it's one of those problems you don't solve easily.

I can do that. It's a nice time for me to take a bit of a break from the job, anyway.

...What, what are you wondering?

I feel like there is a solution but no one's come up with it and I'm blaming the politicians ignoring the 12 Dimensions.

Is it?

Oh, just a bunch of dumb thoughts, but wondering if I should uh, be in my Hybrid Spirit-Human for more for one.

And if I ever go back, Ai and I selling on the gimmick of "Clothes by Fallen Angels/Demons" would work as a sales point.

There's some politician posturing but also the tech is kinda fringe. I'd have to delve deep into Different Dimension tech, which I haven't in a while, look up theoretical technology on Space Bridges...

Well, if your hybrid form is comfortable, I don't see why not? It's not like it's a, uh... "complete" change, like me with Gigantech.

What would that look like, fallen angel-themed clothing? I'm... curious.

I swear I've heard Leo Corp talk about the same thing. You two seem to be involved in a lot of the same tech.

Yeah, it's more my skin turns tan, my eyes red, and my hair goes purple.

... Maybe not fallen angel. But I was thinking sultry but class, bad girl but with wealth, an air of evil?

I guess I can take that as a compliment. Admittedly, I'm not sure OOPARTS' R&D budget could subsidize a space bridge prototype...

...Well, I can't say I would mind it, obviously. So if you think it'll make you more comfortable, I'm all for it.

So, "Femme Fatale", a Castle and Castle brand?

Yeah. It's like baffling. Where is there no super easy consistent transport means.

Like I said to Shikou and I'm ranting here and there: I basically want to smash down everything in my life except family, and kind of go from scratch if that makes any sense.

Abyssal Apparel or Faustian Fashion, but yes as a. Yes. Right. Castle & Castle brand.