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[whitrthanwhite]

Ugh. What do you take for nightmares that seem to be regular.

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Re: [Private to Shian]

[whitrthanwhite]

It's not asinine to want to live a relatively normal life with minimal strangeness.

I refuse to let my mother be right that I'm a freak.

Re: [Private to Shian]

[memoryistime]

... Why do you care, though?

Re: [Private to Shian]

[whitrthanwhite]

Because it's what matters to me. I want to prove her wrong because it's my ultimate revenge by proving her wrong.

Re: [Private to Shian]

[memoryistime]

...

Do you even talk to her, anymore?

Re: [Private to Shian]

[whitrthanwhite]

No.

But living my life completely normal is my revenge.

My ideal.

My desire.

My hope.

My virtue.

My perfect world.

Re: [Private to Shian]

[memoryistime]

... Again.

Do you know how asinine you're sounding at the moment?

Like, you're saying stuff I'd expect the villain in a comic would say. One of those really edgy comics, too.

Re: [Private to Shian]

[whitrthanwhite]

How does being normal sound edgy.

Re: [Private to Shian]

[whitrthanwhite]

Besides. I relent on using magic for work. Letting my hair be multi-colored.

That's enough. I want to be able to set my boundaries of what is the stop point.

Re: [Private to Shian]

[memoryistime]

The edgy part comes from the whole thing you just went on about "desire, hope, virtue, perfect world"-- it sounds like the kinda thing someone about to do a purge does.

And that's fine, it's fine to have boundaries on where to stop. I'm telling you though to use your magic a bit more so you can keep those boundaries. Sometimes you gotta do something different, cause now your "muscle" is used to what you usually do.

Re: [Private to Shian]

[whitrthanwhite]

I want a purge. Of magic thinking it can do whatever to me.

If I use it, I can't keep those boundaries. And if I keep doing something different, eventually magic will invade my entire life in a way I don't want. How it is right now is perfect.

o3o

Re: [Private to Shian]

[memoryistime]

Well. Whatever. You asked for a way to help. And I gave it. I've got my own immense worries to deal with, too.

Re: [Private to Shian]

[whitrthanwhite]

Such as?

Re: [Private to Shian]

[memoryistime]

Matters regarding my most immediate relations.