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[whitrthanwhite]

Ugh, I keep having awful nightmares.

I think my subconscious is trying to guilt trip me.

And like hell I'm going to listen.

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[observershikou]

... Why do you think your subconscious is trying to guilt you, now?

[whitrthanwhite]

Because I keep dreaming I'm basically Jouji or in his situation.

But I know this the right thing, being this tough on him.

[observershikou]

... And yet your subconscious is trying to guilt you on it?

[whitrthanwhite]

Yes.

Much like his comments that I'm turning into Mom are eating at me.

Because if I don't loosen my grip.

He'll become some Duel Knife Wielding Maniac.

[observershikou]

... And what'll happen if you do "loosen your grip", if he'll become a knife wielding maniac if you don't?

[whitrthanwhite]

Er.

I meant if I DO loosen the grip he'll become a psychopath.

Keeping my grip iron clad keeps him a good boy who will fly right.

[observershikou]

... Are you sure about that?

I mean, he did kinda... Snap out at you pretty badly, before.

In fact, "pretty badly" feels like an understatement with how immensely poor it went.

[whitrthanwhite]

All a part of the road to making sure mother's taint doesn't ruin him and black magic doesn't ruin him.

[observershikou]

I... See. Mmn...

How are you holding up, anyway?

[whitrthanwhite]

In what way? The pregnancy?

[observershikou]

... Yes, the pregnancy.

[whitrthanwhite]

Fine so far as I know.

I'm still very mad about it.