whitrthanwhite | (no subject)

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Wow, that's one heck of a delayed reaction.

It's like if a dinosaur had taken the final.

I AM NOT A DINOSAUR.

It's just a metaphor.

I AM NOT A METAPHOR EITHER!

Okay you're upset right now, I wasn't calling you a metaphor.

I'm not one!

You still graduated, what does it matter?

I have no worth.

..What.

I have no worth. 18 years of my life have no meaning.

..But you graduated.

As a worthless deadbeat.

I have no meaning.

how did..

you...

what does it matter?!

Everything.

It doesn't matter at all!

You graduated.

You're employed.

If you want to go to college, Duel College will take you without an exam!

None of it means anything. I have a hideous black mark that has made it all pointless.

You're the only one who thinks that.

... Then "go fuck off", please.

... You didn't seem this surprised before...

Because I was drugged out of my mind!

Well, what's done is done, anyway.

...

At least you still graduated.

And not to double-whammy you, but when should I start harassing you about loan payments?

... I think I'll just die to end the shame.

You can't die until you pay me back.

All the more reason to.

I'd probably reanimate you and tack that onto your bill if you tried.

I'll just keep doing it until you give up.

Damn it, I really thought that giving you something else to focus on would work.

I guess I could just sue your mother for the money, then. Probably would have to lock you up so you didn't hurt yourself.

Why. I'm some worthless dead beat who couldn't pass her final exams.

It happens.

Besides, you did well enough to have a job still, so how high your grades were at graduation doesn't really mean much.

High school is just a preparation for College entrance exams, anyway.

Please "Go fuck off".

... Guess this was to be expected.

Hope you at least like the dress.

... It'll be good for my funeral.

I'd prefer you not speak of dying, personally.

You most likely didn't have complete control over yourself, as it is, if you're panicking now.

And because of it, my life has no meaning.

I think it has meaning, as long as others consider it to have meaning.

At the least, Miss DeRay and I consider it so. ... And I guess Mr. Haitayuu and Mr. Eusebius, as well.

I don't. 18 years have all gone to waste.

I think life is more than academic points.

As it is, I think you've covered many of the other points of existence-- even by society's standards, you are successful.

Though I guess maybe "Shiroko standards" are not applicable to the world?

It wasn't enough.

Please leave me alone if you're not going to understand why I'm upset.

Actually, I quite understand why you're upset.

Since I tried to motivate you while you were acting like that, and I was very disappointed that you failed.

However, if you need time alone, then I will give it. But please, don't kill yourself over it.

I think I need to go walk.